Abandon ship.

I'm talking about the single boat here, everyone around me seems to be getting married in relationships!

I'm happy for them all but I wish it could be my turn now. I've been properly single for a very long time now. After mum died relationships were the last thing on my mind.

But I do want to settle down. I know in young but I wanna find someone and spend my life with them, get married and have a family. (having a family being the most unlikely)

I dunno, other people have noticed it and I get it. They say I have an old head on young shoulders and I do, but only because I've had too. I lived a carefree life before my dad got poorly, I was 11 years old and I had no idea and shit life can be.

When dad then died I had to pull it together. 6 months later I ended up becoming a carer for my mum when she got ill. I left my childhood at the door 8 years ago when I was 20.

I don't regret it though. Looking after my mum was a burden yes but also something I was and am proud to say I did.

Now my mum has died I have to learn to control finances, maintain my house and look after myself. I'm now an apprentice which means I go to college and work at the same time.

So yes. I am maybe to mature for my age but that's what life has given me so like it or not I live with it.

CD1!!!!

I never thought I would be writing this. After a 35 day cycle AF is here!! I'm happy about this but WTF is going on?? I go 10 months with nothing then poof, 2 in the space of 35 days. That is seriously weird.