the one i lost

on thursday the 26th december i couldve been pregnant. but im not now. On friday i went to see a doctor as i was feeling really ill and also AF was VERY light, i was told to do a HPT on sunday and go in first thing this morning for a blood test, well when i did my hpt yesterday the 2 lines were there but were very faint, but i was hoping and praying that it was positive. After an agonising wait i was told by my doctor i was probably pregnant in the last week but i lost it, that why the lines were still there but faint because it happened recently. i came away from my doctors sat on a bench and i cried. i didnt know why i was crying, i didnt even know i was pregnant but every second of that 20 mins sat on that bench was gut wrenching. so i came home and got a coffee and jsut sat in silence by myself i always seem to cope better by myself. I hope there will be a next time for me, i cant wait to be a mummy, and i dont what i will do if i can't. I what i fail to understand somedays is how god could bless women with the precious gift to give life but missed me and the other wonderful ttc ladies out. but right now i am single so i doubt miraculous conception is an option but i hope in the very near future i will be a mummy, and i also hope that all the other wonderful ttc ladies will also be blessed with the gift to carry their own child.

My first blog post.

Well first im gonna say hi :) my names cara and I live in the united kingdom. I'm 17 years old and have been diagnosed with pcos for about 2 months but I've been suffering with it since I was 14 years old. I live with my mum who I also care for full time as she's disabled and really ill. So basically my life is very hectic and in the middle of that I'm kind of ttc. I'm single at the moment so I'm not ttc right now. But I can't wait to be a mummy. I decided to start a blog to kind of vent my feelngs and to share my journey in life so I hope that you enjoy the ride lol I'm also on Twitter my username is teenwithpcos which i'm constantly updating and chatting on. Hope you enjoy my blog and I will speak to you all soon xx