Wednesday, 28 July 2010

How many more bad days?

Today has been rough, actually the last 6 years of my life has been hard. 6 months after my dad died my mum got poorly after an operation that went wrong. It's hard yes, I don't want sympathy, never have never will. This is my personal blog, it's for me.

Today has been one of those days where it feels like the work has turned it's back on you, I'm exhausted, have absolutely no energy and I'm in the crappiest mood ever. I'm an emotional wreck, one minute I'm fine the next I'm crying like a baby, it really is horrendous.

I'm still fat too, I'm at the gym 3x a week, do workout DVD's the other 3 days and then I have Sunday off. I'm eating well, my calorie maintenance level is about 2710 calories and I'm averaging at 1500 calories a day as advised by the dietician. Barely any weight loss at all, in the past 3 weeks I've lost 3oz. It's pathetic and it's shit. Now that weight loss surgery has been ruled out aswell because I'm not fat enough, that's it, a vicious battle to stay stuck how I am.

I'm not fat enough for weight loss surgery and I'm not thin enough for any other medication to help me, I can't go on metformin because apparently I'll have a stroke.

Moving on, I'm now at CD202. My last period was January, this is also a pile of crap. I've tried Ginger,parsley tea, everything non prescription with no sign of anything.

So, after all my crappy moaning, I'm gonna watch some TV, and you know what ? Me and my mum are ordering in pizza tonight. I need a relaxing night where I'm thinking about other things apart from periods and diets.


Posted from my iPod touch.

3 comments:

Nikke Brown said...

I know the feeling. I struggle with weight loss on a daily basis.
It's not going to come off all at once.
Stay focused and continue to do all the hard work.
It will pay off eventually!
*Hugs*

pcos532 said...

Can you go on birth control to regulate your hormones? I know some people are against it... Before I knew I had PCOS, I was on OrthoTricyclen and would gain weight despite running 3 miles everyday. After I was diagnosed, my doctor gave me Nuvaring. It doesn't necessarily make me lose weight, but it at least regulates my period and doesn't have too much of an adverse affect on weight loss.

Samantha Ghan edel1010 said...

I'm so sorry. I am allergic to all birth control so I feel you when it comes to not being able to have help with weight loss. But keep going. If I can do it everyone can.

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