Ok. So today is one of them really crap days, well Im like this all the time but today it has been really bad.
I've always had issues with the way I look (Its a woman thing) but with me being the weight I am, it has gradually got worse. I'm at the point where I can't stand looking at myself in a full lenght mirror. I don't even own one anymore because I despise myself that much. I've been on diet after diet, pills and more pills but nothing works.
Right now I'm considering a gastric band, now I'm 18 it's something I'll be able to have. A few people had said they know people who had it who hate it, but people have also said that they know people who've had it, lost the weight and are happy. I had thought about a gastric bypass, but I wouldn't want that kind of surgery and also gastric bands are reversible if needs be.
I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow, so I'm gonna speak to her and then see how I go from there.